I Didn’t Know What Is It

It all begins from here…

Whenever I tried to talk to you…

You haven’t ever come…

I just cried all day long…

Wondering if you’ll come here…

To erase my tears…

To safe me from my fears…

To hold me from my failures…

But, I’m false… You’re not here!

I still walked alone in the edge of the street…

I remember all of our memories…

Whenever we talked together…

Whenever you’re in my side…

Whenever you looked at me…

Whenever you’re smiling to me…

Whenever you’re talking about everything to me, or you let me talk about everything to you…

Whenever you walked beside me, like you’ll safe me forever…

Whenever we got our long chat…

Whenever we ate together…

Whenever our friends yelled at us…

It makes me crazy…

I lose my control…

I just yell and yell…

I don’t know what people said! Whatever! I f*cked up everything!

I just cry and scream with my tears, my fears, among the rains!

I feel like I want to kill you!

I want to erase all of this pain, all of these tears, all of these memories!

But, I can’t!

I can’t do it by myself!

But, in this gloomy day…

I feel like we’re so close and close…

I regret my decision and so does you…

But for sure…

I can’t go back to our old story…

It just our memories…

It just my past!

And maybe, it’ll never be my future…

I just can stand, smiling to you…

I’m so sorry, I can’t go back…

However I still have this feeling…

Yeah, I can’t lie…

It’s hard indeed to forget you, to forget our memories… Our sweet memories…

But, any regrets…

Is it so useful?

Our regrets, is it useful?

I don’t know, for sure…

But, I don’t hate you…

But, I don’t try to throw away everything…

Every centimeter of our memories…

Every second of our memories…

I will remember it… :’)

PS: But now… Would you like to be my good friend? I wish you would…